138. Illuminate

I had an interesting conversation with my friend Kathy a few months back. She had a medical history built from her own DNA sample. She never knew her father and wanted to know what health risks possibly lie ahead. As we discussed the idea further I asked her an interesting hypothetical question... if you could, would you want to know exactly how and when you are going to die. She answered, "Yes." She felt it would give her the opportunity to plan for every she wanted to accomplish in our one chance at life. But I wouldn't want to know. I think I would be so consumed by the anticipation of the event I would stop living.

I had forgot about the conversation until tonight when Curtis asked me about our dog Miles' diagnosis of incurable cancer. He asked how I felt knowing that Miles was sick and didn't have much longer to live. Of course I am overwhelmed with sadness knowing that a member of family is going to leave us, but I am relieved that we know its happening. With a heads up I can spend extra time with him, spoil him with ground beef dinners, and love him up.